All that imaginary money...

Today was my first day of training at the bead shop. Let me tell you, I'm glad I'm not relying on this job as a big means of income. In my head I've already spent at least half my paycheck, and I was only there for three hours! I just kept seeing things and mentally adding them to a list that won't stop growing. I need help, seriously.

Yesterday evening I spent some time working in the garden with my mom, and I took some photos of her fabulous flowers that I thought I would share.

Right now, among other things, we've got some beautiful irises,


some wild poppies,


and some brilliant pink lupines, which are my mom's favorite!


As for my flowers, I've got these available at my Etsy Shop.

Off the Beaded Path

Yes indeed. My favorite bead store ever needed part time help, and there I was! I'm working at the bead store all summer! I foresee my paychecks going straight back into the business, but I don't feel the least bit upset about that. Plus, I get to take classes!

Additionally, this is my new favorite design. I'm in love with briolettes, absolutely taken with them. I doubt I'll ever be the same!

This lovely piece is made with two sweet little New Jade briolettes and a smattering of Swarovski Crystals. It's for sale on my Etsy page, you can find it Here!

Life

For the record this isn't the sort of thing I generally share with the public.

I made a life altering decision yesterday. It was a long time coming...weeks and months of unhappiness culminating into one final push. I didn't want to do it, but I know that I needed to, that even though it's causing me pain now, in the end it will prevent much more. I hate hurting people, I hate breaking promises, as naive as they may have been. Forever wasn't as real then as it is now. I hate leaving people behind. I don't want him to feel pain, struggle, abandonment. If there was a way to end something without losing anything I would take it. All or nothing is a hard bit to swallow.

I don't know exactly how I'll react to this in the long run. Today I'm scattered, trying to involve myself in projects, books, work, but I can't hold my attention steady for long. You may see a huge burst of activity from me, attempts to immerse myself completely in my work and not think about what I've lost. You may not hear from me for a while. I don't know. We'll see.

Goodbye my one. Here's to memories and dreams of eternity. I truly wish they could have been.